Alternate ending
Sick of waiting in traffic, I turn on the radio in my car and a song blasts loudly through the speakers. It's not just any song though, it used to be our song. It still is our song. No, it used to be. I know I have to come to terms with her death, but I can barely even think about it. I quickly turn the radio back off, and rest my head on the steering wheel.
Thoughts of the past race through my head, memories of her overwhelming my senses. The scent of her hair, the sound of her laugh, the warmth of her touch; almost as if she were still beside me. A horn blares from the car ahead of me, forcing me to reality. I turn to look at the passenger seat, but of course it is empty. It will always be empty.
The car horn's obnoxious noise fills the air again, and again, and an intense rage washes over me. How can they be so intrusive? How could they destroy her visage with such impertinent nonchalance? The horn sounds again, and I can no longer contain the mixture of anger and depression that has possessed my thoughts.
I open the door and step onto the asphalt. As I begin walking forward, a police officer approaches me and informs me that I need to get back into my car, that there's just been an accident in the tunnel ahead. I ignore his words, and he repeats that I need to go back to my vehicle. He puts his hands on my shoulders to force me to stop, and in the same moment I've already pulled his gun from his holster. The barrel rests under his chin, and I see a terrified expression cross his face just before I pull the trigger. His brains explode through the top of his head, and his body slumps to the ground.
I turn to the occupants of the van that insisted on assaulting me so heinously. The vehicle has a fat girl in the driver's seat, and eight other passengers as well. I notice that one is holding a box of apple juice, and another is listening to earphones, but all of them are staring at me in horrified disbelief. I aim the gun at the girl driving, and she tries turning the steering wheel to pull out of traffic. It's already too late for her though. I squeeze the trigger and watch the contents of her skull splash across the inside of the windshield.
Before they're able to flee the vehicle, I turn the gun on each and every one of the occupants, ending each life with the ease of ripping petals from a flower. When I finally stop, there is no movement left within the confines of the windows, now adorned with bullet holes and opaque with blood. There is not enough left of any of the passengers to even be able to identify them.
I feel nothing but relief at having brought order to a world of chaos, at gaining control over a life in which nothing can be controlled. My fate was to be torn away from my wife, to be separated from her by the impenetrable barrier known as death. I finally realize that I can determine my own fate, that I am the one who decides what does or does not happen, and now I've decided to be reunited with my wife. A smile crosses my face, as I put the barrel of the gun in my mouth and pull the trigger.
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