My account was deleted on the forums by some dude so I'm going to post this here in the hope someone from the team forwards it to their forum.
The message is,
Hi. I'm IskatuMesk, and I used to be a part of this project. At three separate occassions there were difficulties in our relationship for various reasons. At the last time, Sarge informed me that he had taken up leadership of the project and wanted me to help mod. At the time, I was struggling to finish my own mod. In return, he offered to help me with my 3d work. For the first while, everything went fine. But I was suffering mentally, and my own work stalled to a standstill. Sarge vanished for a long time when I needed a sprite from him, and I released AO without it. Despite this, I still felt I could help the project as a modder. But I was wrong. To make matters even better, I started taking a drug that I now discovered I shouldn't have been taking, and it made matters much worse. SoW is home to a variety of individuals and where I thought I had the mental fortitude to communicate with them responsibly I was wrong.
Recently I've started taking a new drug that has completely changed my depression. When I opened my eyes for the first time in many years, I rediscovered where it was I wanted to go and what I wanted to do. And I also remembered the many mistakes I have made in the past, especially when I overreacted to mike's actions in IRC. I don't know why Pharazon doesn't like me, but I apologize for anything I have done to him. I want to apologize to the entire project, but Sarge especially. I took up the job knowing full well I wasn't ready for that kind of a commitment, and even though I helped him out a bit, I feel that I set myself up for one of my greatest failures in the history of my modding career. I feel that things I may have said, or done, were against the judgment of a better man. Since AO's release, I have now retired for modding and I have no desire to ever return to it. I wish I could still do something for SoW, something to make up for the broken promises, but I don't think I can.
So, there you have it. I made a big mistake. I made errors in judgment. And now I'm really beaten up about it, because this is the only time I have ever lose control of myself to the point of creating such a conflict. I hope that with this new drug I can better myself, better my life, and strive towards the goals that have always escaped me, like finishing my novel and learning 3d modeling and animation. The road will be long and difficult, but thanks to likes of Sarge I have had a good point in starting.
I hope that in the future, you will find the room for forgiveness.
Show them your butt, and when you do, slap it so it creates a sound akin to a chorus of screaming spider monkeys flogging a chime with cacti. Only then can you find your destiny at the tip of the shaft.