Over the past few months (and year) I've discovered a lot about myself and what I want to do with my life. I came to terms with my unconventional gender identity and I've skirted with amateur music performances. I've discovered two things that truly make me happy: Playing music for other people and trying to, as awkwardly as I do, be female. I don't know if I can really explain some of this to you (and I expect, no, DEMAND mocking comments), but I honestly don't give a shit anymore. You figure out that other people don't determine who you are or how you feel, it's really up to you (at least most of the time). I've been so absolutely gorgeously happy trying full time to look female that I'm not deflecting or steering away because of other people's opinions or dumb comments.
I've also split my school time between my main school in the morning and a 3-hour VO-Tech Electronics shop in the afternoon. Being around an all guy shop and listening to daily conversations of "fag" this and "you're a homo" that, I don't really feel like plopping down on a computer chair and listening to you guys doing it. I've made enough friends that trying to keep in contact with this site is just a bummer really. Not that you all aren't interesting or anything, but face it: communication is about more than words. I prefer, so strongly, to have real person-to-person conversations. It's kind of tiring but eh, whatever.
In summary, I'm basically too busy with other stuff right now to waste all my time on the internet. SEN is fun, but I've never really been very productive or really completed anything. Right now I'm trying to dedicate my minimal work ethic into my school and my music. Basically, I'm either on extended hiatus or permanently AFK. I'm probably not going to dedicate alot of time here anymore. I'm hesitant to say goodbye here, because SC2 may just tie me to my computer again. Don't count on it.
Anyways, I'd like to apologize to people who commissioned me for terrain work/work on a tutorial DB or whatever. Here is what I actually have as far as commission, for payne. I'm sorry that I didn't really work on it enough. I've spent close to 9 years playing this game (considering breaks where I didn't have it). I've had a fairly complicated life, not necessarily the roughest or more "street" or anything.
Don't get me wrong, I've been in foster care, I've been with my birth mom (where I currently reside), I've acted out enough to have been institutionalized and I came close to doing it again last year. Right now, I want to go to college, I want to finish building an amp, I want to be gorgeous and beautiful and sexy, and sorry SEN, but if I'm up all night talking here I don't have time for my 1 hour+ beautification process.
Goodnight everybody! Love you all, except the ugly people.
You know who you are.
Potato,
Adam
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