Man I love her with all my soul, and she also loved me, a lot. She is so nice and beautiful, and she is just a friggin sex addict like me...
...such a sex addict that I can't tell her not to meet other guys and have sex with them, hell, that yould be the most selfish act of my whole life.
So I told her, two hours ago, that I was okay with that. She told me that she was happy to ear it, as she has a crush on a guy and she didn't wanted to tell me, she was afraid to hurt me.
Turns out I'm hurt, I love her and wouldn't tell her to wait for me (we both are 17, can't get a friggin car yet, it might take at least a year!)... But just seeing this relationship end like that, it just gave me the chills and I wanted to put my dad's scimtar-like kitchen knife through my heart.
So to ease the pain I went outside, at approximately around -5 to 0 degres farenheit. I walked up a hill and let the extremely cold wind tear through my skin, I was facing it, my eyes were crying because of the pain I felt. I stayed here like that for 10 minutes, until I could accept it.
Why did i came here? Well I needed to write this, and you guys are the people with which I've been the most sentimental in my life, I know nowhere else. Feel free to comment anything, I just needed to empty my sack.
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